You are reading Part One of the mini-series subtitled “Conquering Fear.”
The Lord led us to move from Colorado to the Bronx one year before coming to Italy. We really didn’t know why, just that it was right. Only later did we see that move was but the first step in a long series of the Lord’s leading.
But even knowing that the move filled me with terror. I was just a simple farm girl, after all, raised in rural Michigan! And New York City was the last place I wished to go.
The Lord guides in many ways. Through his Word, our spiritual leaders, the counsel of godly friends. And by giving us a peace that passes all understanding. Even when we don’t understand.
Fear of the unknown
Yet as the day drew close, my fear intensified. Visits to my husband’s Bronx family over the years had done little to set my heart at ease. Yes, I’d seen New York a bit, but still feared it.
And feared all that I didn’t know about it, our life there, and what could happen. I wondered how I would ever survive in such a place! But just before moving, the Lord put peace in my heart with this verse:
How foolish I was being! Had I forgotten that the Lord is everywhere, even in New York? “He’ll be with us,” I assured myself, “surely all will be fine!”
I wish I could say that the perfect apartment we found was a result of my great prayers and faith. But truth is, I’d been too busy worrying to pray about any details at all! But the Lord is ever faithful, even when we are not.
God’ provides and protects
We often fret over things that never even come about. I had dreaded the idea of a huge apartment complex. But we found a place in a single-family dwelling. Along the tree-lined street of a quiet, friendly neighborhood. Complete with a fenced yard and trained German Shepherd watchdog! (Useful things to have in the Bronx!)
He was God’s dog. Which is why, upon our arrival there, the new landlady greeted us in utter astonishment. Rocky usually lunged at anyone foolish enough to near the fence, barking with snarling jaws.
But not us. He simply greeted us panting away and wagging his tail. The landlady only came to look because she heard us talking to him as we pet him!
They usually had to pen him up before letting anyone in. But he took us in as family right from the start. Almost as though he had been waiting for us. And I think he was!
Crazy as it sounds, I think Rocky was God’s dog! Used by the Lord to help me through a really difficult time. Teaching me that he was with me – even in the Bronx. And that I could walk safely even in the middle of such a big and scary metropolis. And that, in spite of my lack of faith, he would always take of us.
God never promised us a life without pain or problems. But he promises to stay with us and help us through.
God never promised us a life without pain or problems. But he promises to stay with us and help us through.Tweet
Our year there was anything but easy for me. The shopping district just blocks from our house was terrible. Drug addicts and pushers, pimps and prostitutes, and street people everywhere. Sirens sounded all hours of the day and night. Traffic never stopped. Crime became part of the daily scene. And overwhelmed, I nearly had a nervous breakdown. (More on that another time.)
God is faithful
God is always faithful. He promises to stay with us and help us through. And one by one, he helped me through the scary days and difficult nights. Through getting lost at night. Through the scariest train journey of my life. And by freeing me from the prison I had placed myself in.
The prison of fear and worry. We can trust the Lord, not only when all is well, but also when overcome by fear and trouble. So why should we fear with God on our side?